More with the writing

How many words are you supposed to write everyday? 10,000? Seems like a lot. I know that I need to do this. I need to proe to myself that I can stick with something. When I look at my future, I hinestly see myslef sitting at a nice little desk withna computer, looking out a window with an unbelievable view. somedays it is a beautiul llake surrounded by trees of fvery color. Sometimes a meadow with butterflies, and bunnies flittering all over in wildflowers. Most days a beach, private, of course, with the sound of waves crashing. I don;t see myself at a desk in an office setting, or a hospital, school, store...That's not what I envision. I need to to get on the balll and do this for myself. Also, for james and the kids. i don't want him to work until he dies. I wanto to enjoy retirement with him. Travelling all over the world holding hands with my love. And then going to visit the kids, and grandkids with him. I'd like the kids to not have to worry about college. I need them to go to college to have a future for themselves, not like me sitting here day after day kicking myslef for not getting some sort of degree when I had the cahnce. Why was I so stupid/